wow.
just wow.
<3 her.

i SO totally heart this:



'Nother video blog tomorrow, hand hurts, goin' to bed.
-m~

bwahahaha!

'Balla Powder is intended for use in the nether regions,
but can be used anywhere that dryness, a great fragrance,
or a little tingle is desired:'

O_O

Balla Powder

It was so easy in the beginning
When you didn't feel like running from your feelings like you are now
What happened? What do I remind you of?
Your past, your dreams
Or some part of yourself that you just can't love?
I wish I could believe you
Or at least have the courage to leave you...


It's over with Robert.
There is no salvaging things this time.
As much as i love the boy ive finally reached my limit.

My hand is killing me and bed is calling.
More on this l8r.
-m~

i totally <3 this!

i went with boiconfessed to Sacred Heart tattoo in little five points today.
He got new ink.
i inquired about the work i want done.

i want two stars on each of my shoulders.
a solid outline with another star in the center.
to symbolize the four people ive lost.
Jason, David, Grandma, and grandpa.

( Something like this... )

The dude wanted $700 for them.
i wanted to tell him it was for the remembrance of people who have died.
wanted to tell him i was an artist too.
wanted to beg him to do it.

but i quietly said: 'oh, ok...cool.'

ill ask at other tattoo places.
it'll happen when it's supposed too.

anyone wanna be a painting for the low low price of $700???
-m~

it took me an hour to shower.
another hour to get dressed.
another 45mins to put my shoes on.

am taking applications for personal groomer and general assistant.
i can't shower.
can't dress or undress.
my roommates won't clean so my house is gonna be a disaster in a matter of days.
need help mowing my lawns - my spoiled dogs won't walk on the grass cause it's gotten too tall...

in better news - my blood sugar is back to normal.
i walked to walmart and picked up my antibiotics.
the swelling in my hand and wrist have already gone down tremendously.
i have to wear a brace for two weeks then go for another x-ray.
if the bones are knitting as they should i can stick with the brace - if they aren't i have to get a cast put on.

( On the road to recovery... )

ive broken my thumb and fractured my wrist.
swelling is due to infection near both breaks.
blood sugar was 733!

they wanted to admit me but i refused.
-m~

ive relented.
and accepted i am only human afterall.
hand is in tremendous pain.
think i have cracked rib too.
hurts to breathe.

going to ER.

say a lil prayer for me.
-m~

fell off my scoot last night.
bad thunderstorms in the Atl.
power outages and downed trees.

tree down in the road.
didn't see it til the very last second.
tire slide out from under me.

think ive broken/fractured my thumb.
road rash and a bruised rib.
broken ego.


( Pics - not for the faint of heart... )

So yesterday my phone got shut of due to a billing error.
I sent Robert this email:

Hey Babe!

There's something wrong with my phone - it should be fixed soon but until it is you can call me on michaels phone: xxx.xxx.xxxx!

i love you!
-j

To which he replied:

Hey Darlin,
 
How are you?
 
I just got your message.  Mo came over and I've had a few glasses of wine, so I'm a bit loopy. 
 
I hope you have had a good day.  Call me when you get your phone up and running.
 
I love you too.
 
Robert


Well by about midnight my phone still wasn't working.
I'd borrowed Michael's phone but Robert didn't answer.

Today - when my phone got turned back on i was outside in the yard.

And here's the voicemail i got from Robert:










ive been on the verge of a panic attack ever since.
i called him back and got his voicemail.
i'm crazy about this boy and i love him so much.
but i'm about at my breaking point.

i don't deserve to be treated this way, right?
-m~

So today - i rode from my house to the Concord Bridge.

It was a fun ride and only like 20mins from my house.
I'd never seen a covered bridge before and decided that since this was so close i might as well.

( I stopped just before the bridge to snap a few pics... )

It was spookyCool!
At first i wasn't gonna ride across it on my scooter - but then i dared myself to do it.
It was creepy and i got the chills - it was like thunder mountain at disney or something and i kept expecting something to jump outta the dark and grab me.

The best friend and i are going back in a little bit caz he want's to see it too!
i think i'm gonna take a vid of us driving across it!


( Bridge and haunting info... )

Then on my way home i stopped by this really cool abandoned building and this old train trestle that seems to appear out of nowhere.

( Urban decay at it's best... )

A very shy guy goes into a bar and sees a beautiful woman sitting at the bar.
After an hour of gathering up his courage he finally goes over to her and asks, tentatively, "Um, would you mind if I chatted with you for a while?"

She responds by yelling, at the top of her lungs, "No, I won't sleep with you tonight!"
Everyone in the bar is now staring at them.
Naturally, the guy is hopelessly and completely embarrassed and he slinks back to his table.

After a few minutes, the woman walks over to him and apologizes.
She smiles at him and says, "I'm sorry if I embarrassed you.
You see, I'm a graduate student in psychology and I'm studying how people respond to embarrassing situations."

To which he responds, at the top of his lungs, "200 DOLLARS? YOU'RE OUT OF YOUR MIND!"

Just dropped my scoot off at Atl Scooters... Pleasepleaseplease let them fix it quick and i pray it isn't too costly.

( Also - a funny... )

I'm in love with stumbleupon.com!

( Some random funnies from around the internets... )